Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Those eight terrifying words!...

All my life, I have always tried running away before anyone uttered those eight terrifying words: "What will you be when you grow up?" Of course, we had first been introduced to this ambiguous question while still in diapers, but always had brushed it aside with the thought, "I'll decide later." High school, we discovered, was later. So we embarked on the tedious process of inventing our dreams. We scoured the career center, hounded our counselors, pestered our parents and teachers. We pleaded with friends to answer in our stead. Certainly we knew that it was our decision, but we had to try to get out of it, right? Make someone else decide.

Soon we understood that to find our passions, we must step beyond the comfortable confines of our abilities. We were forced to expose ourselves once more to the vulnerability of trial and error. But this time, as we delved into the unfamiliar, we had self-assurance to attempt the experiment. And so, amid the swirling waters of confusion of choosing the path to the next step in our lives, backed by constant guidance from parents and peers, I really do believe that we gradually will formulate a future. Our future.

This post is to me and all those out there who are still very unsure of their next step in live, choosing the career of their passion. Fret not, with time, I am sure all of us will figure out our true calling.

Things we ought not to be taken for granted...

My mum asked me today, " Whats the date?" Since I was after SPM, keeping track of the date was the least of my concerns, after thinking hard for quite sometime, I calmly answered my mom,"It's the 30th of Dec", immediately after that, a realization hit me that it was THE 30TH OF DEC already. Ever since I finished the exams, life has been nothing but a joyous and leisurely thing and now with the new year nearing, little did I realise that well, the time has come that the day in Divya's house might have been the last time ALL of my friends might have been free enough or are even here in the first place to gather. Div will be starting college in HELP on the 3rd of Jan, whereas Jana and Sara will be shipping off to their respective NS camps in the same week too.

I have heard countless stories from people about how the memories that they shared with the friends they met during those years in secondary school were their fondest, but somehow or rather they have lost contact with their friends. I would say that this is such a shame indeed, so well I decided to write something on how friendships should never be taken for granted and this goes out to my dearest and closest friends whom I truly do love and appreciate, Div, Shon, Darshe, Niro, Manpi, Ai Lin, Pravin, Rudy, Sara, Jana, Burhan, Thatcu, Qusai, Kern Yeung, and Hao Jia.

Every person  above that I have met throughout these few years had some sort of impact on me, each in their own unique way..

Divya: Wacky girl who really does impress me because she has never ever failed to put a smile on my face despite being moody or normal or super hyper. Thank you so very much for those memories.

Shona: She truly did show me the value of being a caring and supporting friend. Thank you, because whether you realised it or not, you have always backed me up on my every action.

Darshe: She showed me that it would be humanly impossible for anyone else ever to be sweeter than her. I love you darshe, you have never ever turned down a favour.

Niro: She might not have known it, but Niro you amaze me because you have always stood up for what you believed in, no pretenses, no faking anything, I can always expect an honest opinion from you regarding whatever it is, but somehow your motherly nature is always comforting no matter how harsh the opinion was. Thank you.

Manpi: Truly one of a kind. Loved her resilience and sense of calmness and her being ever funny with her outlook on things. Love you.

Ai Lin: She has taught me one of the most valuable lesson, dont give a damn about what people think about you, it is indeed your life, so you are entitled to do whatever you want despite the perception of some people. This is one of her characteristics which I admire the most. Thanks love.

Pravin: What more can I say, you have without any doubt always been there for me, no matter what time it is, accepting and tolerating all the crap I say and I know that you are always there to tell me the brutal, honest truth no matter how embarrassing it is, just to look out for me. Thanks P.

Rudy: Simple, my place of comfort. Though I know that I have to work more on my mothering skills on you. Haha.

Sara: An awesome, loyal friend who never ever shuts you out even if you annoy the hell out of him by not replying his messages, haha. Sorry and thanks for putting up with it.

Jana: A charming young man indeed who always makes me laugh when he says something, everything which comes out of his mouth is somehow silly which makes it funny. Haha.

Burhan: Someone whom I adore for always encouraging me to try and explore new things. Thanks B.

Thatcu: A friend in need is a friend indeed. You never say no to a help, do you?

Qusai: Haha well you thought me a little bit of evertything actually, thanks.

Kern Yeung: She showed me that silence can be golden indeed, haha and she is one of the most hardworking person that I know, always can be counted on.

Hao Jia: One word comes to my mind, selflessness! He is always snapping pics of everyone else when everybody else is so self absorbed waiting for their pics to be taken. I have always admired him for being calm and collective.

Well, my point is, yes sure we know that we cherish each other very much. Many promises have indeed been made to always keep touch, it is now, just the question of whether or not will we stand the test of time?

Friends are, in a way, witnesses to our lives. They see and experience with us our triumphs, heartaches, successes and failures. The transition that we are going through into adulthood is one of the most important phases of a person's life, and the people who have seen us through that are the ones who probably understand us best.

I know for a fact that all of us will definitely change as we grow older, some of us more outwardly and some of us more subtle and i am not also denying that most of us are going to find equally meaningful friendships through our journey in college, university and so on. Our different friends are reflections the people we are at different points of our lives.

After this, in years to come, I know that we all will be studying or go on even go on to work in different parts of the country and what not the world, yet I hope the feeling of closeness, trust and love will ever be present in the conversations that we will be having in years to come over the phone, in e-mails and in person. I have stopped taking the bond of great friendships for granted. I have stopped thinking that my friend will know that he or she is appreciated without me saying or telling anything. It is always said that true friendships will transcend time and distance but people also always forget to mention that they still need effort and time, just like any other relationship.

I had always assumed that my friends would know that I love them and that I would be there for them without a moment's hesitation, bit it recently dawned on me that maybe they didnt know that after all. I know that I have got precious friends when they never call you about this and just accept you for who you are without ever withdrawing their gestures of affections. There is no real way to measure friendship but the most tangible would be to make my friends feel as special as they do to me, so this post is to all my dear friends to tell you guys how special and important you are to me, and this is also kind of a signal and warning alarm to never ever stop keeping in touch cause the minute you do that, I will be haunting you in your dreams and you know that you wouldnt want that.

So to all of you, remember, in the years to come, if you ever need someone to make you laugh when you are sad, make you smile when you are crying, tell you the brutal, honest truth or help you see your dreams come true, your friends will always be there. With this, I wish all of you a future  full of cherished friendships.







FIRSTS...

30th Dec 2010....Well I could say that this is pretty much a historic day for me (well historic defined in my terms of course) since today was the day that I got to add one many things in the list of 'My First Times' in my life.
First and foremost,

1. This one is something I am proud of most definitely, this was the day that I FINALLY put up my first post on this blog of mine, although I created the blog not more than a week ago, well little did I know that creating a blog was definitely the least of my problems, getting inspired to write something not-crap-worthy was definitely a huger problem. But since today I did do so many firsts, I was inspired.

2. Today was the first time I was suspected to have thyroid, well this one is obviously something which I hope will be the first and the last time, I just added this to lengthen the list.

3. I freaking watched a football match!!! After 17 years, I finally figured out how to be fascinated with the matches just like the guys. The whole match is just like a drama, a soap-opera with tears, people screaming, rage, some melodramatic slow-motion dropping to the ground in pain, fights, facial expression. I just cant believe that I didnt figure it out sooner, seriously this players are better actors then most of the drama people. So then I figured out if I cant imagine my own little drama happening on the field, I would be able to get through a whole match without feeling like whacking the crap out of those players for causing my bros to grab my TV time.

4. And one of the fun things in my list, I was messaging Divya about the match during the match. That was fun and when I realised it , I actually felt touched and overwhelmed with emotions, haha. I have no idea why?

Well before actually typing this out, it actually felt like a whole lot more firsts than this, but four firsts in a day is not bad at all I guess...this post is to many more glorious and amazing first experiences in my life...